There was once the story of a girl named Jamie… la dee da dee da.
Anyway. So the day before I went to Mexico, I talked to Daniel for like 4 hours. It was tough. Knowing I would not be able to talk to him for a week. I was so worried about how I would do effective ministry without talking to him. I just knew that all I would do all week is think of him and miss him.
On the last day of the trip, I realized… I hadn’t been thinking of Daniel at all. I was talking to my best friend Emily about it and she told me I needed to be honest with Daniel about my thoughts. I was scared. I knew he would be mad. Here I am in Mexico not thinking of him at all while he is at home thinking of me probably 24/7.
I talked with him this morning and I told him the truth. I was completely honest. And while telling him, I heard God tell me “Jamie its okay for you to be single. I want you to be single right now.” Honestly, I can say I have never heard God’s voice so clearly. Until now. He distinctly told me that at this stage in my life, I need to be single.
I was an emotional wreck all day. It was horrible. Crying all day. Angry. I so much did not want to let go of the relationship I had formed with Daniel. But I knew God wanted me to. After a day of praying and thinking and crying, I decided it needed to be done. So when he came online tonight, I told him I have something to say. He asked “Good or bad” I sad more so bad.
And I told him my feelings. About God and how being single is going to allow God to work in my life like never before. I need to become complete in God before I am ready to be in a romantic relationship.
So I have decided all the time I spent talking to or thinking about Daniel will now be spent with God. And Daniel took a lot… A LOT of my time. So I know this is what God wants and desires for my life so I am excited for this new season of my life before the World Race.
wow...this..this really touches me jamie...im so proud of you..
ReplyDeleteU are amazing Jamie. I know God will bless you for your strength and obedience.
ReplyDeleteYou know sweetie
ReplyDeleteI can see the passion that you have for the call of God on your life, and I admire you for that. I had expressed to Daniel via Skype just a few weeks ago, when he found out that do to your missions you would not be gong to Peru, he was broken hearted, and it was then that I told him, perhaps prophetically that he needed to let you go to do the will of God in your life. And here you are making that decision...You Go with God, and be all that you can be! I am 39 and still single, and waiting. So, there's no rush on GOd's time table, he is not worried! He has got your past, present, and future under Control.
Love in Christ,
Cristina Wilkison