If I have to choose....

So I just had my phone interview for the World Race. I should know by next Thursday if I am accepted or not.  How stressful!! Ha ha, but this will show me if God wants me on the World Race (WR) or not.

Something I have been struggling with is Daniel and the WR situation.  When I first told him, he was upset, but quickly turned around and was completely okay with me going and waiting for me for a year.  Too good to be true right?  Well it was.  I find out that he had lied about that and in reality he does not want me to go on the WR.  He wants me to return to Pacasmayo this summer because he needs to be with me.  When I found this out, I was (and still am) angry with him.  I thought he understood that God came first in my life and that was exciting, but in reality he wants to be first even though he says differently.  I feel like he thinks he is the only one with emotions and that this decision only affects him. It is so hard to convince him otherwise.

During my interview, the girl asked if I was in a relationship, and I said yes. And she said previous people in relationships focus too much on the significant other rather than being on the race.  I do not want that to be me. But I also do not want to let Daniel go. Selfish I know.  But maybe in reality, Daniel and I are not meant to be together.

I want to go on the WR. I want to serve God and give God all of me.  But exactly how do I do that?  Sometimes sacrifices have to be made, even if we don’t want to. I am really going to be in prayer about this for the next few days.  

I have already decided that if I have to choose between God and Daniel (because I feel like I can’t have both at the moment) then I will choose God.